It is strange how one can get so attached to a certain lifestyle, a certain ways of doing things, places, people. The last week in the dorms was intensely sweet for me. I savored those final days of being with friends, playing and laughing together. I wish I could say goodbye better, but I don’t really know how. It gets all awkward near the end, and I was hot and tired in the airport. It doesn’t really matter because we’ll stay in contact online, but still.

I managed to sleep for most of the flight, thankfully, but the first day back was difficult. I missed everyone, I was bored and lonely, stressed and depressed. It was cold and raining in Auckland, and that didn’t help. It wasn’t like I would be better off having stayed in the States, of course, with everyone else scattered about as well. Reason never had much sway over emotion, though. So I just allowed myself to be moody.

I slept for over twelve hours and woke up feeling much better. Max went to school, Papa to work, and my mom and I to Takapuna. The weather turned warm and sunny, so we walked along the beach and talked. We’re hoping to move to Takapuna, getting a place by the beach and near the town. Perhaps I will get a job stocking shelves at the store or something to occupy myself. I have my own projects as well: learning 3D modeling and poi spinning, among other things. This “summer” is sure to be long…